This was on sat 28th June 2008! CYCling with Erny, my very DEar fren! siszta!
We really didnt meet for a long time and this time spent togetherwas worthwhile we explore the nature of ubin and at the same time we did catch ups on our lives!
Thanks erny for making it possible!
Luv ya!
1:13:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.
Monday, 7 July 2008
Guess wat peeps! todae is my9th month anniversary with my sayang Zahir! im happy n sad at the same time. Well i really understand that he is working hard enough to make the best of himself here in Singapore. His aim is for ppl to work for him in future.. he does nt want to work for ppl in the near future. I really like his determination cos i noe he will achieve it. He's not like others, really determined and noes where to head to in life... he spent all his time now with his work as a driver of toyota corola picking up n fetching engineers to the sites all dae n nite. i really pity him, he didnt take his meals at the right time alwaes late for one, he alwaes have like 2 to 4 hrs to sleep only per dae... he gets back ard 3 plus am and wakes up everydae ard 0630 for SUBUH prayer then off to work...
But 1 thing i really salutes him for is that he prays no matter how busy he is... its something that im really ashamed of myself that i don have that devotion yet...Haiz things are not like last few mths b4, i don get to spent time with him anymore maybe i c him like 2 to 4 hrs once a week...i really miss him alot, i hope he misses me too as much or more thn i miss him.. haha!
but todae i really questioned myself abut me n zahir n Our relationship...how far has it gone too, todae is a special dae but he makes it seems like todae is just another normal dae, no wish from him, he doesnt show any signs that he cares n treasure this relationship...i want him to prove to me that he really loves me and this relationship that we have.. i love u zahir! pls see me thru, grant my desires...so that i noe u really not taking this relationship as something NOT important...
anyway, im just glad that i have finish the 4 dae 1* kayaking course for NAnyang JC 1 peeps... thank god its over its tiring for me as i cycle back n forth.. thigh muscles were used for me to get home or to work. arm muscles were used for me to kayak and to impart my knowledge to this wonderful peeps! glad that all make it and learnt something useful that they can relate back to their lives and the challenges that awaits them.
Its been 4 mths plus since i slack from graduation.. i really want to get to be a part of police force...waiting for its call seems foggy for me... its been a mth plus since i went for interview... what my parents n zahir saes its true.. what if i cant get thru? am i going to wait and waste time just for this? Zahir saes that if i work right after i graduate, i could bring home at least a thousand plus times 4 mths, i should be able to have some savings.. oh i wish i can do something about this soon enuf, i don wish to waste time just like this, my family is not well enuf, how long can my parents last for the income n the basics that we need... i think its time for me to contribute to my family.. i wish my family is well off.. if only i come from a family thats rich like others of my age... if only my father was really working hard to make my family a better place... he's lazy! i hate him for that. alwaes aim for average, as long as its enuf its ok, he doesnt want to earn more for a better life...
oh all are ifs... why think of what has happened and things that cant be done, i got to think of what i can do to feed this family of mine... this moment i really want to get back to Allah and start to be a gd muslim... a gd person, a gd one for everything....i really want to be one...
9:48:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.
Pix Of Us!
My Planner
End of Feb 2008
--> get a stable full time job
-->L1 Coach assesment
-->Car prac to be done wif!
Peeps BDAEs
AYAh --- 01th JAN 1954
Khal --- 05th JAN 1988
ela --- o4th FEB 1990
WAn --- 26th FEB 2008
ISKandar --- 02 MAR 1988
miNe --- 24th MAR 1988
Erny --- 25th MAR 1989
SAmeer --- 14th APRIl 1987
MUM --- 23th APRIl 1947
nana --- 03th JUNE 1993
LI --- 4th JULY 1988
MAssI --- 7TH OCT 1988
rYzMAn --- 10th OCT 1988
LAn --- 12th NOV 1968
HAfiZAh --- 25th NOV 1988
fir --- 26th NOV 1987
I want to call the stars down from the sky
i wanna live a day that never dies
i wanna change the world only for u
All the impossible i wanna do
i wanna hold u close under the rain
i wanna kiss ur smile and feel the pain
i noe whats beautiful, looking at u
in a world of lies, u are the truth
and baby everytime u touch me, i become a hero
i make u safe no matter where u are
and bring u everything u ask for,nothing is above me
im shining like a candle in the dark, when u tell me that u love me
i wanna make u see just what i was
Show u the loneliness and what it does
you walked ino my life to stop my tears
everything is easy now i have u here
and baby everytime u touch me i become a hero
i make u safe no matter where u are
and bring u everything u ask for,nothing is above me
im shining like a candle in the dark when u tell me that u love me
In the world without u, im alwaes hunger
what i need is your love to make me stronger
and baby everytime u touch me i become a hero
i make u safe no matter where u are
and bring u everything u ask for,nothing is above me
im shining like a candle in the dark, when u tell me that u love me
when u tell me that u love me
Cravings
-->*ThE Wanted*<--
♥ Crumpler Sling bag [the big one].
♥ A shoe & a sandal.
♥ A driving & a riding licence.
♥ N95 Hp.
♥ A new lappy.
♥ A haversack from Karrimor brand!
-->*Wishings*<--
♥ To be a good muslim and a great person with the guidance of prohphet and the way of ALLAh
♥ Have a comfortable life with financially stable.
♥ Have someone to share everything wif.
♥ Understand the meaning of my life and do better.
♥ Have a powerful MIND.
It's Me The MoTivAToR!
NameSs : HahagaLeha hahagal leha sala haha ha SALAd
Status : "In a relationship && a GRADUAND"
School : Nanyang Polytechnic-->School of Information Technology [SIT]-->Diploma In Information Technology [DIT]
Interests: Sports Soccer Camps Kayaking Adventure Training chocolates[Dairy Milk CADBURY] Dressing Up
Fast Foods : Double BBQ Turkey Bacon @ Burger King Double cheeseburger N MCSpicy @ MacDonalds Zinger Burger @ KFC
Home-Made Foods : Lauk Lemak Cili Padi Lauk Bayam wif Fishballs Beef Rendang Mee Soto Mee Goreng Nasi Goreng
Lauk Fish Curry Nasi Lemak Sop rusuk kambing [I LOVE IT THE MOST!]
Outside Foods : Mutton Chop Claypot rice[CHICKEN] Roti Prata BOM with Cheez @ Simpang BEDOk [SPICEz] Kuew Teow Pattaya @ Simpang Bedok [SPICEz] Roti Naan with mutton Curry @ near mustafa centre
Nasi briyani Dam chicken @ haig Rd mud pie @coffeebean blueberry cheescakes@coffeebean
