***hahagaLeha's journey OF life***

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

well its been a long time since i ever touch this blog of mine, totally forgetten about it. i was so occupied with my occupation now na barely have time for anything of my own. sometimes i wish to have a time of my own, but i cant. guess this is one of my life's sacrifice to have own business.
NO LIFE!!!!

1. i got a whole new experience on how to manage a shop n the business itself. i learn more about zahir. i learn more about myself too. about the customers, why they act that way...Every dae got something to do. topping up the stocks, customer service, merchandising items in shop, safety of shop, well basically everything. Managing money is very important, u cant play with bank you noe.

2. Recently did kayaking for camelot with sam, me, farhan, sky junior n robin. 5 of us and 1 expedition to coney island with hougang pri. its been so karat la since i did kayak, hahah now back to ground at last . i missed being in it the activity, the sport and of course the frens n collegues.

3. Turned down the offer of police officer. a step away, cant attend the sing bonding. ignorant police, they gave me last min info on fri, how u expect me to be ready woth my 2 sureties on mondae the 2nd nov? and the caller can even suggest me to withraw my application and she passed the comment GOOD! to me. fuck up siaa... i will never think police as high as i thought b4.
Already so racist look at the color of skin. u think we malay stupid. u think u guys chinese got power> hello! the commands are in malay the national anthem is in malay! mind that...

4. im adjusting myself to this new life of mine. bedok to sin ming so far, i started to stay at shop but my parents made a commotion a few weeks back. made me cry cant stand it. they accused me of sleeping with my boyfren at shop. already my father n my uncle came to my shop for the first time. never give me bleassings straightaway raise voice in gangster manner like want to fight with me. wanted to talk to me for a while. ask me to come out of shop. i was alone how can i left the cashier unattended. they just don understand. i hate my family but not my motther of course. she has been caring and alwaes trust in me . whatever i did she alwaes support me even though she was not totally agree with. all they wanted was to shout at me n zahir, accusing my boyfren that he has been keeping me. but acutally i was the one who chose to stay at shop cos its more convenient for me. rather then to wake up so early in the morning waste time for the travel time. n at nite i can sleep more time if i stay at shop. but my parents worry to much that im a girl la losing my virginity, oh man i noe how to take care of myself. they still don let me be independant of myself. how am i going to stand with my own legs by myself.

zahir urging me to get my pdl then my driving lessons then licence. hahahz we bought a van already for the company to do delivery services, cant wait to drive man@ my cousin already got her own motorbike n she's my age, gosh im so jealous thaat she is already a private road user, go anywhere so accessible, not like me restricted following the public trasport.

zahir has made me even stronger. he opened up my mind n thinking, Thanks to him, im what i am now. we,re planning toget married cant wait for that time of my life whn i finally be a wife. im glad to serve him, now he finishes off his study first then we be married, a simple one that im loooking for, a wed in the mosque with just my close relatives. n maybe another celebration at bangladesh, his home town. and by that time my life will be more meaningful, a gd muslim, a gd wife and i will be very close to allah SAW insyallah@ thats my ambition. i will achieve it. i don want to be like malays nowadaes. follow stupid western n they become stupid malays too. never solat, tattoos all over, they are so sesat with satan. i pray for them to realise thier mistakes and come back to the light the right path b4 the world ends. ameen.

thats all folks, still at shop now... too free liao, haaah take care dear frens, everyone one dae will create his own wy of life. wish u all the best.

7:17:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

Friday, 26 June 2009

hey yall! its been along time since i ever touch this bloggies and update sorry FAN!!! hahaa aniweis lots have been happening to me to name a few...

1. my urata bicycle got stolen when i parked less than an hour at tampines.URGH!
2. and i bought a new bicycle which i love the most and have been using it as my transport to get to caamelot to work! i boight my bike at sungei rd for 90 BUCKS! so cheap.
3. i got 2 accidents with bike at road. almost cost my life but thanks god he still loves me lotszzz! i was left with minor cuts and bruises!
4. im still with my babay boy!!! Zahirul islam I love u so much!!
5. i gained more xperinces whn kayaking was put down to lots of under pressure especially with JAy thanks babe!
6.my mum got to operate on her knee just recently i pray for her best!
7. i was struck by a ghost at camelot at 5.17am. fri the 13th!
8. my npcc was doing gd and we had just run a camp successfully! thanks sameer and all for making it happen we had FUN!
9.i love ZAHIR even more each dae!!!
10.and guess what peeps IVE GOT MY OWWN BUSINESS TO RUN come support me at sin ming rd blk 22. me and my boyfren is running the entire shop. that means i cant go shopping cant go cycling cant go kakyaking oh man! cant meet my best buddies and cant spend time at npcc.
11.i still love ZAHIR even more each dae even when we argue about wha to put in shop!!!

haaahha thats all folks! taking carez!
signing out.... roger and out!

8:19:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

Sunday, 1 February 2009

hey peeps! its been a long time since i update about occurances my life. It has been i would rather sae daring of me on some circumstances. i gambled alot of risks here and there but im glad that it happened for the very first time and i was able to cover myself. thank god. been very busy ans slack would sae. Most of the common things i did everydae is to wake up late afternoon then shower, find job, then call Him and meet him for dinner, spent time in da room ,(wei. do nothing ok! don think dirty!!!) hahax! thats how it is. other than that, ive been busy with NPCC UNIt and also my freelance job at CAMELOT!!!. but i m really looking forward for full time stable career to start wif anytime soon.

Im bored with almost a year not getting a"real" job. i feel the pressures from family and my own financial side too. i cant really enjoy much. No savings, everything out, nothing in! oh man. im hahging people like a jellyfish. wandering ard here and there.

well thats it for now, shall try to find more time to spent here. take care!

8:56:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

Sunday, 2 November 2008

Ahoy there! hahax, time for some updates.well recently i bust with my driving lessons at eunos big carpark. i signed up with the company called Soon TIen.sumthing like that i suppose, the driving instuctors are most make of elderly peeps which is a gd thing, they are very patient, calm n cool. Expertised ma! so i got mine. i addressed him as MR tan. he really reminds me of my late grandpa.

aniwaes this is what i have done for the past few daes!

27th oct --> i spend my time with zahir. meet him in the morning about 11 plus, waited him to finish shower and we make our way. iTs deepavali day so alot of ppl at serangoon area. My dear Zahir surprised me! he bought a gold chain for me and wanted to pay the rest of amt and get it on the spot. but unfortunately, he cant collect it on that dae as the shop closes at mustafa centre. well it didnt happen so i didnt bother about it anyway, but then, as we about to proceed to the car to pick out the helmets, his grp of frens was there ans he spontaneously introduce me to all of them as they saw me with him. heheh! felt awkward and shy but it was ok managable for me as i am frenly n didnt matter in making new frens so zahir ask them out for a cup of tea!of course he blanja lol! so i sat down, they talked for a while, then at last we proceed to his car and guess what he told me to pick up the helemts while he go solat zohor! oh man! zahir argh!!!!its not like im angry with his commitment to solat, but he really like prompt 2 things poppingup. we r supposed to catch a movie and that was his idea, now u c what i mean, he change his ideas so fast@! anyway i waited bout 20 mins then we off to get the bike and make our way to THE CATHAY to watch SAWV. show starts at 1615pm we were 1 hr early, so we roamed ard n thank god it rained whn we already reach the building, so u noe smokers and the rain. what else, he smoke la, i stand waiting for him to enjoy his puff, then we ate some paus at 7 eleven then off to catch the movie. show was nice i love it, he slept inside, well he's tired i understand! he massaged my neck cos its a strain sitting at the front seat last corner.
Then we off to another smoke by him, wipe the bike, then off to serangoon then he gotta work at nite. oh man! i will never have a full dae to spend time with him! aniwaes i follow him to CCK to pick up MR LAMBRI then i tot of making my way from CCK to home. but he invited me and drop me off at outram to make my way home, that was nice of MR LAMBRI. hahx! woah! thats it for the dae!

28th Oct --> Met erny n suhailah at UBi drving centre. i book my FTT, will be on 10/12 @ 0430pm. suhailah went for her prac3. me n erny head to paya lebar for a walk at CITY PLAZA. i bought 2 dresses 1 $10, the other, $6. nice n cheap. of course gd quality! [don b jealous!!!]then we head for dinner at KFC9 [zinger meal] then i meet zahir at serangoon for like 45 mins b4 he went to work! then i follow him to tanjong pagar, i make my way from there to home!

29th Oct @ 6pm---> My first lesson --> Paid enrolment fee of $30 + $36 (lesson fee),i was really nervous at the start of it, but eventually everyting starts to be in place.he teach me the controls of car, im taking manual u c, so alot have to practised on especially the synchronisation of my legs n steering and the views. i really feel like sitting in a cockpit! then a few rounds on changing gear. reversing to park then lesson end after 1 1/2 hrs. i make my way to ITE SIMEI as zAHIR got his night class there! i waited for him till about 0845pm he make his way out from class, met me, i drive the car for a round in car park then we make our way to my carpark, i make my way home afteri massaged his arms n shoulders. i pity him! tc dear! i wish u well...

30th oct --> 1st ever COMBINED UG CAMp at PYSS! im involved in it. from 8am till 9pm! its a dae camp. zahir didnt let me go as u noe its a waste of my time according to him la. so i went on my bicycle to PYSS then teach them drills n tent pitching. cool dae lots of things happen. relly opened up my eyes big big that the standard really has gone somewhere else. oh man. but it was a great deal, diff activities by all othe UGS,
SJAB -- First Aid, CPR
NCC -- Orienteering
NPCC -- drills, tent pitching
GG -- gadget making
BB -- adventure Quest

31 OCt -->i went for lesson 2 for my driving. 0100pm till 0230pm then i make my way to meet zahir at lavender.! hah which after i make my waay home from serangoon. todae is the last time i c him for the week.. i missed him lotzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

01 nov -it was a prompt2 plan. with jerly, she supposed to meet glenn at PP but he was sleeping. hhuhahua@ poor jerl she make her way to tampines mall to meet me as i have planned to finish my resume then off to tamp mall to get a ling bag at a low cost and i got it at $11. urban. haha! its pink! ok lol, we took 65 to harbourfront VIVOcity to meet her another fren. esther and watch a movie SING TO THE DAWN at 7pm. bought popcorns, nachos set! haha! then off to candy empire to get my chocolate then off to LJS for dinner then make my home bus 30 with jeryl then 28 to home!reached at 1215am. hahaah! wat a dae...full of jokes n laughter!

02 nov --> gathering with the gold buddies, MAS, JERyl[in church now i guess] n FIZAh,going out later with them at 0430pm at orchard mrt. wonder what will we do there! i dunno what to wear?? update later i guess! so much for now...

tata titi tutu!!!

1:02:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

Friday, 24 October 2008

Oh yeah! at last i gotta find time to bloggy babe! hahax. a lot of things has happened all this while and i could make myself free to blog cos i got a lot of events these few weeks.

well i just came break camp todae at CCAC CAMELOT as a GI. i took Peirce Sec 2 adventure camp. well i think the camp is a well done one. the campers was an obedient one, the boys were the noisy ones, they talked alot, the gals was the quiet one. Amazed? this is the new generation thats evolving in singapore. oh gosh! its terrible, much more worse. but i believe that as long as they noe whn to be attentive, there is no reason to talk unnecessarily.As usual, i learn something from this camp. i became the campfire IC with bear! i think i cant make it as a campfire IC, dunno why, maybe im still not used to the Camelot atmosphere and not confident at all when leading the songs. in any case, i did it, i didnt back out and i don really care if others laugh at me cos i noe this is where i learn and pick up as i go along. i hope i can do well as a campfire IC and tune it my own touch whn dealing with it.

and guess what when i was about to break camp, during area cleaning the last activity for the kids, a bunch of ping yians with Gabriel came for a KOP [kayaking oreintation programme]. and we had a talk me n Gabriel the overall CCA in charge for pyss [he's a teacher]. we talked about the upcoming UG camp. and several opinions about pyss internal matters on ccaa/ im very happy cos finally all the hopes i had n the wait for someone to initiate this cca thing has finally being looked into. oh i feel my drive being flushed in to me again. im so full of this. but i thnik my zahir will feel unhappy wth me doing this things cos he don understand the passion i have for my npcc unit n the rest of the uniform grp ccas in pyss. he regard this as wasting time n i should be loooking for job insteAD!

oh well. thats all, tata titi tutu!

taking care#[don want hives again]

The campers were a typical bunch of students. They were so concerned whn asked to sit down on sandy area. they will use thier feet n palms to sweep it away then sat down at the clean area. i think during the camp they really learn the meaning of RUGGEDNESS. There were leaders who stepped up to lead and gathered the rest to come to decisions like a grp name n even the campfire item. One regret that i have for this camp is that i really didnt make enough time n effort to recognise their names. anyway i really enjoyed myself.

Sat-->> 18OCT2008
well; so much for the camp itself, recently i had my area 10 ATC (NPcc) at CAmp resilience Pulau Ubin. sadly, i left the camp on 2nd dae morning with the help of iskandar, [Thanks bro!] he sent me out by van if not i have to wait for the 1st shift of teacher officer to come which is like about 1pm. thats too late for me to go seek medication at bedok poly since they close half dae on SATs. hahax, actually i got HIVES, the dae b4 i went to camp. so it got bad when i got to camp and i stayed at medic post the whole nite. what is HIVes? HIV? ahhax choy!!! its an allergy reaction on skins. its kinda heat rashes very itchy once scratch u cant stop. thank god i got ghangha{sorry if i spelled it wrong} she nurse me and kept me well throughout. i was soaked to caLmine lotion mins after mins. all the more i grabbed attentions from those passed by the post and i became a white Indian. [red indian?? get it], haha everyone was concerned. i really felt at ease with colleagues of mine showing care n concern about me. i really felt at home. they are mt family! thanks again to all. sorry i didnt make it n helping out for the camp.

well ALONG THE WAY waiting for bumboat and other 11 passengers[cos bumboat wont leave if there is only 1 going off unless i pay full 12 passengers amt which is $30. thats too expensive for me. im short of cash on hand cos i need the rest of it for the doc later] i met a bunch of camelot ppl. so surprised! there was JAy, wayne, chloe, win. 4 of them doing safety support for a unch of sch kids touring ard ubin for half of the dae. hahax! the orange ppl. then after a long wait i finally saw a few that wants to leave ubin. thank god, at last i got a ride n i paid only $3.

then-->

My teacher officer, mr shahid was very kind enough to pick me up from changi and sent me to the docs as soon as possible and still he has to make a trip to Ubin for the camp. i really appreciate alot for his help. cos of him i got early treatment and i can rest more time at home. The doc gave me just a medication. and i consulted him for less than 5 mins. so i make my home n slept till the next morning.

my zahir was really about me. he smsed n called me frequently for the nite. and i told him the situation, report ma! hhaa nah!

7:58:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

Wednesday, 17 September 2008

Well well, here i am again. Just went to CAMELOT to submit my application for upcoming L1 kayaking COACH. yesssa! finally im on it. But it happens so coincidentally. i didnt even plan for it. oh well. grateful that all these while i have been active there so this is my chance to a greater length. thanks to CAMELOT i am able to upgrade myelf in the mean time.

Im stressed out all these while. got a problem that im facing now. which is JOB??? i gotta find one, most of my frens are doing something and earning well also. but not me im clinging ard like no one's business. my parents haven been nagging at me especially this yime round. they asked me qns like "what if one dae im not able to provide for the family? " thats what my father posted me. thinking about it, im also worried, ehat i should to do? i must get a job somehow even it means im under qualified. but i don like a office jobs as i don like to sit ard for so long time. haiz!

mY INTEREST is either POLICe, civil servant job OR venture into Outdoor line like kayaking, doing camps, high elements ans more like that. but in the long time run , can i survive in this line of mine.will it help me to secure a stable imcone throughout the years?

all i want now is to get a stable income for my family, when everything goes well financially and back to normal, i will want to further up my studies or rather opening up a business with zahir, hahax!

anyway, i booked my FTT test already yesterdae at ubi driving centre. ITs on 21st OCT at 0540pm. ive got to study up and get prepared. oh well, if only jerly is in this together wif me! i miss her alot. wonder how she is doing out there!

zahir made me happy and smile yesterdae. he smsed me saying that whn he is free, he will bring me down to bazzar and walk2. huahuhua! i like.. waiting for that to happen.then we can get COUPLE DRESS for hari raya. ahahz!

well these are my plans for this week:

THURs -->> break FAST wif ERny n frens @ NTU [iftar] >> meet erny at NYP 0530pm
FRI -->> L1 KAyaking Coach theory lesson 6pm till 10pm >> to kallang. buy break FAST foos 1st
SAT -->> L1 KAyaking Coach prac lesson 8am till 5pm >> to kallang
SUn -->> L1 KAyaking Coach prac lesson 8am till 5pm >> to kallang

hope to meet Zahir sooner or later! miss him so much!

taking care...

5:29:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

wohohoh! its been a long time ever since i got touch on this dear journal of mine. well peeps, my laptop is gone case. Luckily Zahir bought a new laptop and its just for me! i really appreciate him! so anyway lots of events have been happening to me this past few months and im grateful that either way it helps me to be a better person and to have a learning experience. thts life babe! now is ramadhan month, fasting month for all muslims in the whole world. oh gosh ive been wanting to be a gd and a better muslim but its just that im still trying to find the meaning of it. i don want to abide the rules just for the sake doing it, i want to abide it with love and willingness. zahir and my mum have been helpful alwaes trying to urge me to pray and be a better muslim but its just that my heart is still nowhere to settle down to.

anyway ive been tricked by zahir yesterdae! full of DRAMA and scenes going on. Long story babe! but im glad that at the ens of this commotion i learnt that in a relationship there must be no lack of trust as it leads to anger and enmity, i don want that to happen to me and zahir. i really treasure him lot. Dear i love u so much!

well simply put , thats all for now a short update, time for me to get rest.
'chioz!

11:17:00 pm
.The MoTivAToR.

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